Now that the idea of committing suicide proved to be futile...I decided to take charge of the situation and make an Action plan.
The first thing I did was to analyse my life and its miseries and find out what is it that is making my life so miserable...well no prize of guessing here...in a blink came the answer its ME !!!!
Never in a thousand years would I have thought that it was ME and ME alone who has brought all this to myself...I was blinded by the thought that it was my husband who wanted to chase his dreams and he forgot all about mine...or perhaps he didn't care !!
Sometimes i would even blame my mom for dying...All I did was blame others for my miseries.
Anyways now that the answer was clear...the next thing I did was to make a list of things that I needed to do...here again my dear friend Google helped me find some motivational quotes and poems.
With this poem I started my journey towards Self Discovery...
If you want to be strong,
you must bear burdens.
If you want to be humble,
you must be humiliated.
If you want to be patient,
you must wait for that which you desire.
If you want to be merciful,
you must find no mercy for yourself.
With this poem beautifully written in red in my diary I went on to create a list of things I needed to do to get my life in order...here I'm writing the exact words I have written in my diary...
Start a new life..!! Get over depression..!!
Mom is not there anymore, but still she is with me always. She is waiting for me in the after life....but first I have to fulfil God`s Plan for me...
Things to do:
1. Get treated for acne.
2. Join Gym.
3. Go out often.
4. Indulge yourself in activities.
5. Get a job.
To my surprise..just when I took charge and asked the universe to give me another chance at life...( The law of Attraction..."the secret") http://www.thesecret.tv/... Boom out of nowhere came a job offer to work as a Beauty Therapist...Here I would like to add that the last time I pampered myself in a beauty saloon was my Pre Bridal beauty treatment...he he he...I'm among those women if there are any...who go to beauty saloons only when emergency strikes...
It scared me to death as I had no interest in the beauty Industry what so ever...I was not even interested in making myself beautiful leave alone others...Well..it was a tough call and I decided to take up the challenge and went to the interview. I was appointed as a trainee and after two months of vigorous training here I am....MY FIRST DAY AT WORK....AS A BEAUTY THERAPIST....sounds fancy is int it...hehehe!!
Life is not so bad after all...!
Suddenly the gloomy, wet Dublin seemed like an Unexplored Paradise.
My not so perfect world is on the road to becoming Perfect for me... :-D
The first thing I did was to analyse my life and its miseries and find out what is it that is making my life so miserable...well no prize of guessing here...in a blink came the answer its ME !!!!
Never in a thousand years would I have thought that it was ME and ME alone who has brought all this to myself...I was blinded by the thought that it was my husband who wanted to chase his dreams and he forgot all about mine...or perhaps he didn't care !!
Sometimes i would even blame my mom for dying...All I did was blame others for my miseries.
Anyways now that the answer was clear...the next thing I did was to make a list of things that I needed to do...here again my dear friend Google helped me find some motivational quotes and poems.
With this poem I started my journey towards Self Discovery...
If you want to be strong,
you must bear burdens.
If you want to be humble,
you must be humiliated.
If you want to be patient,
you must wait for that which you desire.
If you want to be merciful,
you must find no mercy for yourself.
With this poem beautifully written in red in my diary I went on to create a list of things I needed to do to get my life in order...here I'm writing the exact words I have written in my diary...
Start a new life..!! Get over depression..!!
Mom is not there anymore, but still she is with me always. She is waiting for me in the after life....but first I have to fulfil God`s Plan for me...
Things to do:
1. Get treated for acne.
2. Join Gym.
3. Go out often.
4. Indulge yourself in activities.
5. Get a job.
To my surprise..just when I took charge and asked the universe to give me another chance at life...( The law of Attraction..."the secret") http://www.thesecret.tv/... Boom out of nowhere came a job offer to work as a Beauty Therapist...Here I would like to add that the last time I pampered myself in a beauty saloon was my Pre Bridal beauty treatment...he he he...I'm among those women if there are any...who go to beauty saloons only when emergency strikes...
It scared me to death as I had no interest in the beauty Industry what so ever...I was not even interested in making myself beautiful leave alone others...Well..it was a tough call and I decided to take up the challenge and went to the interview. I was appointed as a trainee and after two months of vigorous training here I am....MY FIRST DAY AT WORK....AS A BEAUTY THERAPIST....sounds fancy is int it...hehehe!!
Life is not so bad after all...!
Suddenly the gloomy, wet Dublin seemed like an Unexplored Paradise.
My not so perfect world is on the road to becoming Perfect for me... :-D
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